you've come a long way, baby

well, little max, er, BIG max is now 2 weeks old. sometimes it feels like he's been here forever, sometimes it feels like 2 days. but i can say this. . .i'm breastfeeding right now as a blog. wow. i think i've come a long way in a couple weeks. yes, the breasts, specifically nipples are still sore, but WAY better than last week. i can actually feed without crying. i'd say that's a step in the right direction. we're also much better at reading his cries, making the outbursts less frequent and shorter in duration. the house is still a disaster area, but we understand that's not going to be a priority for a while and people just have to understand that.

i was surprised when max was born that i didn't have that immediate infatuation with him. it was like i knew i needed to take care of him, and there was this instinctual routine that took over. but in my mind, i wasn't able to just flip a switch. a coworker relayed her birth story to me and said "it wasn't love at first sight, i needed time to fall in love with her just like any other person." when she said that i thought "who needs to fall in love with a baby you carried for 9 months?". i thought it was kind of cold. . .until it happened to me! the love comes quickly, though. each day i seem to focus less and less on how much my life has drastically changed, and more and more on this miracle of life. i still can't believe he came out of ME!??!?!?? what the?!?!? but here he sits, breastfeeding in his little vikings outfit (it is sunday, after all) and he just amazes me. there are tons of things i still have no clue about, for example, i asked my step-mom this evening "when do they start talking?". so, there you go. . .but today was a good day.

click on the "our photo albums" at right to see some max pics.